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Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Irritated and I hate myself @ 11:08:00 PM
Really irritated, tired and I hate myself right now Sometimes, it is really hard to make a decision. What makes it even more difficult is that you don't really have someone to talk too, nor discuss about it. Urgh.
I was actually chosen to go for the FYP cambodia trip in August. I didn't know about it until late afternoon on Monday. Apologies to everyone whom I told that I wasn't chosen. The mail was sent in late. Now I have to decide whether its a thumbs up for me or not.
As I didn't have time to speak with my parents, I have NO choice but to seek for my Dad via msn. Luckily for me, he is online today. Told him about the Cambodia trip, and this was the conclusion (to him).
Apparently, he didn't want to stop me from going, and its rather supportive. But urgh, i'm going Cambodia, not some orchard trip down town. How? Gosh. Now is totally up to me.
Why I wanna go so much? 1. If I don't go now, when I can ever set my feet on cambodia again? I might die without exploring Cambodia at all.
2. Life-time opportunity, Its cool shit to do FYP in another country isn't it?
3. Angkor Wat, and AK 47! Why not?
4. I need a break. Maybe a breather at Cambodia will be nice.
Why I don't wanna go? 1. I am a leech. Obviously I can't pay for my trip. My dad has to pay it for me and I'm not comfortable about knowing the fact that My Dad is paying for extra costs just to get me graduated from RP.
2. Literally Pangseh-ed RPWS. Obviously if I go, I can't attend band prac and my com. What if wrong decisions were made and troubles arise, and I'm not there? Will it be a big risk to take?
3. Lessons. My mum just signed me up for lessons. Will it be ethical for me to skip 2 lessons?
4. Cambodia, I don't know if I am strong enough to survive Cambodia. 2 weeks without close friends and family. Can I?
Currently, I am seriously confused. I have been asking and talking to a lot of people. Some jokingly replying me, some replying to my questions seriously. there are mixed feedbacks, in which I can't come to a conclusion. This is worst then deciding whether Uknow or JaeJoong is better boyfriend quality. Shit No matter what I have to come to a conclusion tonight.
URGH
I hate myself for being such a timid, selfish, indecisive bitch. timid as I can't fly to Cambodia myself without worrying about this and that. selfish as I, I actually thought of leaving the band and everyone else, just because I want to explore Cambodia. indecisive as I, I figure out to go or not to go.
And I haven't finished my FYP, and I have another FYP meeting with advisor tomorrow. Have to finish up everything by tonight. And tomorrow has Band prac and UT too. URGH!
WebMistress: Data Name: Jas ^-^
Gender: Pretty OBVIOUSLY
Age: 19
Birthday: Somewhere
Image: Charismatic, Smart, Sexy
Updated facts, accuracy 20th Feb 2008: Still playing the bass trombone You know I can't live without cookies and cream ice-cream Maybe I am I love with Tohoshinki! Have 1 ex husband, 2 husbands, 15 boyfriends, 1 spare tire and 6 more others on the waiting list.
But there's still him, love Xiah!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Irritated and I hate myself @ 11:08:00 PM
Really irritated, tired and I hate myself right now Sometimes, it is really hard to make a decision. What makes it even more difficult is that you don't really have someone to talk too, nor discuss about it. Urgh.
I was actually chosen to go for the FYP cambodia trip in August. I didn't know about it until late afternoon on Monday. Apologies to everyone whom I told that I wasn't chosen. The mail was sent in late. Now I have to decide whether its a thumbs up for me or not.
As I didn't have time to speak with my parents, I have NO choice but to seek for my Dad via msn. Luckily for me, he is online today. Told him about the Cambodia trip, and this was the conclusion (to him).
Apparently, he didn't want to stop me from going, and its rather supportive. But urgh, i'm going Cambodia, not some orchard trip down town. How? Gosh. Now is totally up to me.
Why I wanna go so much? 1. If I don't go now, when I can ever set my feet on cambodia again? I might die without exploring Cambodia at all.
2. Life-time opportunity, Its cool shit to do FYP in another country isn't it?
3. Angkor Wat, and AK 47! Why not?
4. I need a break. Maybe a breather at Cambodia will be nice.
Why I don't wanna go? 1. I am a leech. Obviously I can't pay for my trip. My dad has to pay it for me and I'm not comfortable about knowing the fact that My Dad is paying for extra costs just to get me graduated from RP.
2. Literally Pangseh-ed RPWS. Obviously if I go, I can't attend band prac and my com. What if wrong decisions were made and troubles arise, and I'm not there? Will it be a big risk to take?
3. Lessons. My mum just signed me up for lessons. Will it be ethical for me to skip 2 lessons?
4. Cambodia, I don't know if I am strong enough to survive Cambodia. 2 weeks without close friends and family. Can I?
Currently, I am seriously confused. I have been asking and talking to a lot of people. Some jokingly replying me, some replying to my questions seriously. there are mixed feedbacks, in which I can't come to a conclusion. This is worst then deciding whether Uknow or JaeJoong is better boyfriend quality. Shit No matter what I have to come to a conclusion tonight.
URGH
I hate myself for being such a timid, selfish, indecisive bitch. timid as I can't fly to Cambodia myself without worrying about this and that. selfish as I, I actually thought of leaving the band and everyone else, just because I want to explore Cambodia. indecisive as I, I figure out to go or not to go.
And I haven't finished my FYP, and I have another FYP meeting with advisor tomorrow. Have to finish up everything by tonight. And tomorrow has Band prac and UT too. URGH!
Dong Bang Shin Ki, 4th Album Mirotic, Showcase You're My Melody
눈을 감으면 들려오는 소리들 그대의 마음을 그대의 작은 생각들을
내 맘의 많은 잡음 때문에 듣지 못 했었나봐 미안해 미안해
눈물의 시간이 이젠 history 걱정하지마 Because
*You’re my melody 너를 연주할게 On & On (and on & on & on)
넌 노래 내 삶의 사운드트랙
인생의 무댈 밝혀주는 너를 사랑해 또 불러줄래 넌 나의 노래
I’m sorry 란 말을 하기 싫었던 자존심 많았던 너무도 맘이 가난했던
내 영혼이 말라가고 있을 때 모든 게 무너질 때 내게 와줄래
슬픔의 시간도 노래처럼 꼭 끝이 있는 걸 Because
**It’s your love your love 내게 사랑을 들려주던 (and on & on & on)
그댄 나의 리듬 내 삶의 선물
늘 항상 곁에서 아름다운 꿈이 되어줘 또 불러줄래 넌 나의 노래
수없이도 많은 Sad love songs 우릴 노래하는 것 같아도
이 순간 내 곁을 지켜주는 그댄 무엇보다 소중한 걸요
눈을 감으면 들려오는 소리들 그대의 마음을 이젠 불러요
*Repeat
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