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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Kicked out? Yeap Maybe. @ 12:15:00 PM
Regrets, maybe? Maybe not? don't understand why I am here for, but still stick onto the end
RPWS had the elections yesterday night. Till late at night. Went home really late, and Daniel caught me. No lies, I honestly told him that I had RPWS elections, and strangely, he was fine with it. He didn't really like me out at night, since I am female, blah blah blah.
He just said something like they finally kicked you out, huh?"
I wasn't kicked out, I just left with pride and dignity.
He continued so no more late nights and kaypo-ing since you are kicked out Me: Whatever.
Which sets me thinking, maybe he's right. I am being "kicked out". Well, I can't deny the truth. the fact that they no longer need me just plastered in front of my face. Not that I like to do all this kinda admin jobs. the first thing that came across my mind was, need not care about membership problems, need not fight for this and that, need not care about my own discipline, need not do this and need not do that. I can even find a job now, since i need not need to set myself as an example to be free for band duties.
I am free!
Others just think that people just come and people just go. they forgot all the effort and hardwork they have put it. I was really heartbrokened, stressed out, frustrated, and extremely disappointed by a lot of things. But i am glad that I strived on. Why i said "kicked out" because, people just forget what you have done and moved on. to think that, during every event, if they needed a cameraman, I am supposed to do it, like i am not part of RPWS. Have you guys thought about how it felt. ANd most importantly, when they needed something, they expect me to accomplish it. You know, no one jumped out to acknowledge this fact except Ronald did. this make me think, what i am here for. to be forgottened in the end. You guys don't need me, you guys just need a working machine and I am just dumb enough to be that.
I just wanna go back the biggest failure I have been, which hafiz definately has, and I do not have, is that human touch. We were one big family back then, as a committee. Thinking back, the current committee doesn't even have a picture taken. its just indifference.
though being welfare was hardwork, but i really appreciated everyone, coming for the band camp. I was really happy doing all those work, though with a small committtee, we were motivated. I just hope everyone the best. :)
I know I can't turn back time, and we can't be the same. But in all, going to be 3 years of band, I have to congratulate myself for not being a quitter. I have definately all the UPs and the DOWNs, in all, at least, if everyone forgets, I still left the BBS and onced a shroomies, so I am definately happy with what i have gained.
Lots of love, to the BBS.
ps: I also found out that I love Sadiq so much. You are the best!
WebMistress: Data Name: Jas ^-^
Gender: Pretty OBVIOUSLY
Age: 19
Birthday: Somewhere
Image: Charismatic, Smart, Sexy
Updated facts, accuracy 20th Feb 2008: Still playing the bass trombone You know I can't live without cookies and cream ice-cream Maybe I am I love with Tohoshinki! Have 1 ex husband, 2 husbands, 15 boyfriends, 1 spare tire and 6 more others on the waiting list.
But there's still him, love Xiah!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Kicked out? Yeap Maybe. @ 12:15:00 PM
Regrets, maybe? Maybe not? don't understand why I am here for, but still stick onto the end
RPWS had the elections yesterday night. Till late at night. Went home really late, and Daniel caught me. No lies, I honestly told him that I had RPWS elections, and strangely, he was fine with it. He didn't really like me out at night, since I am female, blah blah blah.
He just said something like they finally kicked you out, huh?"
I wasn't kicked out, I just left with pride and dignity.
He continued so no more late nights and kaypo-ing since you are kicked out Me: Whatever.
Which sets me thinking, maybe he's right. I am being "kicked out". Well, I can't deny the truth. the fact that they no longer need me just plastered in front of my face. Not that I like to do all this kinda admin jobs. the first thing that came across my mind was, need not care about membership problems, need not fight for this and that, need not care about my own discipline, need not do this and need not do that. I can even find a job now, since i need not need to set myself as an example to be free for band duties.
I am free!
Others just think that people just come and people just go. they forgot all the effort and hardwork they have put it. I was really heartbrokened, stressed out, frustrated, and extremely disappointed by a lot of things. But i am glad that I strived on. Why i said "kicked out" because, people just forget what you have done and moved on. to think that, during every event, if they needed a cameraman, I am supposed to do it, like i am not part of RPWS. Have you guys thought about how it felt. ANd most importantly, when they needed something, they expect me to accomplish it. You know, no one jumped out to acknowledge this fact except Ronald did. this make me think, what i am here for. to be forgottened in the end. You guys don't need me, you guys just need a working machine and I am just dumb enough to be that.
I just wanna go back the biggest failure I have been, which hafiz definately has, and I do not have, is that human touch. We were one big family back then, as a committee. Thinking back, the current committee doesn't even have a picture taken. its just indifference.
though being welfare was hardwork, but i really appreciated everyone, coming for the band camp. I was really happy doing all those work, though with a small committtee, we were motivated. I just hope everyone the best. :)
I know I can't turn back time, and we can't be the same. But in all, going to be 3 years of band, I have to congratulate myself for not being a quitter. I have definately all the UPs and the DOWNs, in all, at least, if everyone forgets, I still left the BBS and onced a shroomies, so I am definately happy with what i have gained.
Lots of love, to the BBS.
ps: I also found out that I love Sadiq so much. You are the best!
Dong Bang Shin Ki, 4th Album Mirotic, Showcase You're My Melody
눈을 감으면 들려오는 소리들 그대의 마음을 그대의 작은 생각들을
내 맘의 많은 잡음 때문에 듣지 못 했었나봐 미안해 미안해
눈물의 시간이 이젠 history 걱정하지마 Because
*You’re my melody 너를 연주할게 On & On (and on & on & on)
넌 노래 내 삶의 사운드트랙
인생의 무댈 밝혀주는 너를 사랑해 또 불러줄래 넌 나의 노래
I’m sorry 란 말을 하기 싫었던 자존심 많았던 너무도 맘이 가난했던
내 영혼이 말라가고 있을 때 모든 게 무너질 때 내게 와줄래
슬픔의 시간도 노래처럼 꼭 끝이 있는 걸 Because
**It’s your love your love 내게 사랑을 들려주던 (and on & on & on)
그댄 나의 리듬 내 삶의 선물
늘 항상 곁에서 아름다운 꿈이 되어줘 또 불러줄래 넌 나의 노래
수없이도 많은 Sad love songs 우릴 노래하는 것 같아도
이 순간 내 곁을 지켜주는 그댄 무엇보다 소중한 걸요
눈을 감으면 들려오는 소리들 그대의 마음을 이젠 불러요
*Repeat
in 
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