Thursday, October 28, 2004

complicated! @ 11:34:00 PM

Why life must be so complicated?
I hate the way which people act to survive in this world.
I Broke my promise and i am sorta feeling guity right now. I don;t really know what or which is my real character. Sort of extreme kind of girl. I can be sweet and caring and i can also be the devil from hell in your life. I don;t really know what is happening to me.
Anywae, i skipped school today to escape from all the teachers who are looking for me all over the place. Committments. I hate them. Why must i have committments. If i was never part of the student council, will i be happier? If i was not part of the sch band, wld i be happier? I don't really know how to answer these questions.
I know i am escaping from reality by skipping school. I know i should face my problems bravely. For that, when comes to facing problems, i tend to run away from them. I always tend to think that i don't have the abilty to solve my problems. However, there is something ironic. i tend to solve others problems very well. Sometimes, so well that i even shocked myself of my ability.
I promised my teacher that i will give her the tabulations on wednesday. It seems improtant to her as she needs to summit it to the school by this week. However, due to my stupidity or something, i dragged it. To save my pride, i told her i didn't bring on wednesdae, which is a total lie. I never did it. Or should i say, i don't even know how.
Here i am sitting here worried about everything. Wanna write a diary but somehow lazy to write. So i decided to do some typing.....
Guilty!!!!
Going to hell tml!!!!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

complicated! @ 11:34:00 PM

Why life must be so complicated?
I hate the way which people act to survive in this world.
I Broke my promise and i am sorta feeling guity right now. I don;t really know what or which is my real character. Sort of extreme kind of girl. I can be sweet and caring and i can also be the devil from hell in your life. I don;t really know what is happening to me.
Anywae, i skipped school today to escape from all the teachers who are looking for me all over the place. Committments. I hate them. Why must i have committments. If i was never part of the student council, will i be happier? If i was not part of the sch band, wld i be happier? I don't really know how to answer these questions.
I know i am escaping from reality by skipping school. I know i should face my problems bravely. For that, when comes to facing problems, i tend to run away from them. I always tend to think that i don't have the abilty to solve my problems. However, there is something ironic. i tend to solve others problems very well. Sometimes, so well that i even shocked myself of my ability.
I promised my teacher that i will give her the tabulations on wednesday. It seems improtant to her as she needs to summit it to the school by this week. However, due to my stupidity or something, i dragged it. To save my pride, i told her i didn't bring on wednesdae, which is a total lie. I never did it. Or should i say, i don't even know how.
Here i am sitting here worried about everything. Wanna write a diary but somehow lazy to write. So i decided to do some typing.....
Guilty!!!!
Going to hell tml!!!!